Tuesday, 6 June 2017

Instagram standards and its pressure #followme & #whiteaf


Above you see my instagram grid/feed/whatever you want to call it. All three from this year. The difference? Colours!

I started Instagram when I was in 6th grade (I've been about 12 years old). Instagram was a new app i discovers because I was a huge fangirl of Taylor Swift. I introduced all my girlsfriends to it, and we would spend every break at school and our time together after school, taking new, creative photos and trying everything out from a new angle. My interest in photography was born - and so was my life on the social medias.

I wish I had saved some of the photos I did back then, but no. I deleted all of them when Instagram became more "serious". Not even serious, actually everyone ruined the idea of Instagram. Suddenly it was about who had the cutest pink sock with the lace on top (yes you do remember the TopShops-ones don't you?!) and in a few months it was all about who had the perfect feed.
Now you photos was not good individually, now it was about making them all look good together. Which meant you had to choose a colour and stick to it. No new ideas, creativity or colours. Most people just went for the white one - including myself.

It's no lie that I love a clean look. I like to feel like nothing is messy and I can have an overview. My room is also always clean and white. I do have colours, but not that many as I feel like I can't concentrate with too much going on around me and in my head. Clean and clear space = clear mind.
I love that my instagram looks good. I love how much effort I have put in every single photo. You should know how much time I use on getting the most perfect, white shot, and the right lightning so it is easier to edit. But to be honest it can also be quite boring.

I'm tired I can't post what the f*ck I want to post. But wait... Who tells me I can't do that? - Hm.. No one really, it's just people tend to follow the ones that have a pretty feed as that is the first thing they see when they go to someones profile - they don't follow because of the good individual photos.
The creativity I felt when I was 12 is gone. It's not mine anymore, it's everyones. Everyone is doing the same. And even through I love scrolling through a pretty Instagram feed and feeling inspired, I hate that my worry about followers and the "rules" of followers is stopping me from posting everything I want.

I am more than the #whiteaf feed. Even through I love white and the clean-ness of it, I also love colours! You should see my wardrobe. The details in my room is all in colours. You cannot live a completely black and white (mostly white) life. And you cannot shun or hold back all your colours, your creativity, your freedom, just because someone years back said that THIS would look the best.
I'm not saying I'm quitting white, because I bloody love it! But from now on I'm also going to post pictures of the green grass and the blue sky.

Read my boyfriends poem "#whiteaf" HERE

Dansk:
Ovenover ser du min Instagram profil. Alle tre fra dette år. Forskellen? Farverne!

Jeg strtede Instagram da jeg gik i 6. klasse (Jeg må have været 12 år). Instagram var en hel ny app jeg opdagede på grund af jeg var en lille Tyalor Swift fangirl. Jeg introducerede mine veninder til appen og vi brugte hvert frikvarter og tiden efter skole på at tage nye, kreative billeder og prøve alt fra en ny vinkel. Min interesse i fotografering kom til - og det gjorde mit liv på de sociale medier også.

Jeg ville ønske jeg stadig havde nogle af alle de her billeder jeg tog dengang. Men nej. Jeg slettede dem alle da Instagram blev mere "seriøs". Ikke rigtig seriøs, alle ødelagde faktisk hvad Instagram handler om. Pludsleig var det om, hvem der havde de flottestebilleder med de flotte lyserøde strømpe med blondekant for oven (C'mon, du husker da de Topshop strømper, ikke?!) Og efter få måneder var det hele om at have et perfect feed.
Nu var dine billeder ikke gode hver for sig, men det handlede om at få dem til at se gode ud sammen. Hvilket betød du var nødt til at vælge et farve-tema. Ingen nye ideer, kreativitet eller farver. Flest mennesker valgte hvis - ligesom mig.

Det er ingen hemmelighed at jeg elsker det rene. Jeg elsker at ingenting er rodet og ejg kan have t overblik. Mit værelse er altid rent og hvidt. Jeg har da farver, men ikke særlig mange, da jeg ikke føler jeg kon koncentrerer mig hvis det roder for meget omkring mig og i mit hoved. Rene mgivelser = Rene tnaker.
Jeg elsker at min instagram ser godt ud. Jeg elsker hvor meget jeg ligger i hvert et billede. Du skulle vide hvor meget tid på det jeg bruger! Det hele skal være perfekt, hvidt, den rigtige vinkel - så det er nemmere at redigere, jo! Men det kan altså også blive lidt kedeleigt...

Jeg er træt af at jeg ikke kan poste hvad f*ck jeg vil poste. Men vent.. Hvem siger det? - Hmm. Ingen faktisk.Det er faktisk bare mennesker der har det med at følge dem, der har et pænt feed, da det er det første indtryk de får når de går ind på ens profil. Det gør det ikek for hvert, individuelle billede. Kreativiteten jeg følte da jeg var 12 er væk.Det er ikke min mer, det er alles. Alle gør det samme. Selvom jeg elsker at scrolle igennem et pænt instagram feed og føle mig inspireret, hader jeg at ejg bekymrer mig så meget om følgere og de "regler" for følgere der stopper mig fra at poste lige hvad jeg vil.

Jeg er mere end et #whiteaf feed. Selvom jeg elsker det rene og det hvide, det perfekte. Så elsker jeg også farver! Du kan ikke leve et liv i totalt sort og hvid (mest hvis) Og du kan ikke banlyse eller holde dine farver, kreativitet, din frihed tilbage, bare fordi en eller anden for nogle år siden sagde at DETTE ville være det bedste at gøre for følgere.
Jeg siger ikke jeg forlader mit hvide feed, for jeg bloody elsker mit hvide. Mne jeg vil også post af det grøne græs og den blå himmel.

Læs min kærestes digt "#whiteaf" HER
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